another sleepless night, gee this is gettin worse... it's not supp t be this way. ive got an appt at ssc tmr. hope my blood test results dont show that i'm dying. even if i was, it'd be very painful to know. well well, at least i know for a fact he wont be around in the morning. so it wont make my heart race or skip a beat. in this case, absence doesn make the heart fonder, it basically just kills the feeling. which might be good. who am i t say its right or its not t feel whatever i'm feeling. At least i know for a fact that i'm still alive, i'm feelin somethin.  It's nice to wake up t a call or text from you. =) or from anyone. maybe thats why i sleep half my day away. i feel wanted, feel accepted, feel loved. i don know if i've been takin a lot from everyone else. ive learnt from the last r/s with a girl that giving sometime's too much, will often result in being taken for granted. you cant deny it, when you get closer and more comfortable with each other, things will be taken for granted. Sometime's you'll ve t go thru pain to realise that actually he or she meant alot to you. You dont cherish things when you have them, you only realise it when it's gone. well, i just found out that... i'm gonna lose track on someone... someone who used to mean a lot to me. who i did the craziest and stupidest things for, spend one of the best times with.. that someone who turned me into who i am today... the person whom i fell for at the start of time... but i have to understand that it's my choice that i lost touch with him.. and... now i'm not going to know what's going on in his life, where's he moving on t... it's hard to accept,  cos he was a great guy apart from the fact that he fucked the ex... it's all good.. girls say good guys are hard to find, i agree with them.. but i think i've found quite a few, and i 'm so glad they're my friends. =) dont tag askin me to introduce them to you, sorry but i gotta think about it. I can get very selfish when it comes to sharing my friends. because, after all, they mean the world to me. I don know what i'd be if i didn ve my friends. I trust too easily, and that's a weakness. i'm not gonna go on. thinking i'll finally be able to sleep. thank blogger for this application. it works a lot better than sedatives that spoil every organ in your body before finally putting you to sleep.