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/ 10:54 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
the birthday is in three weeks time. and frankly speaking, i am not exactly very excited about it. i mean, yeah, its three weeks away, some of you may say, but this isnt my normal self. usually i'll be jumping up and down announcing to everyone my birthday is coming and all. maybe i;m getting too old for birthdays. well, we'll see how 18th and 19th july goes this year.
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/ 11:57 PM
Saturday, June 28, 2008
dear friends,
i'm very sorry for the constant changing of blog address. |
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/ 8:27 PM
Monday, June 23, 2008
monday was relatively a fun day with pet and jem. lunch at far east. the forever craving chicks rice. i bet jem was damn hungry cos he ate two plates of chicken and rice. but pet tricked him into it. now you know why you shouldnt trust pet when it comes to eating. she will say lets have lunch and i'll be the one eating and she will be the one drinking. so you know who's getting fatter and fatter each day. after lunch or rather, hi-tea, was off to look for watches. i dont know whats with the boyfriends and watches man. it always seems to be watches. why not briefs? waterbottle? pencil box? HAHA. anyways, after some unsuccessful browsing, we went to carlton to collect pay. (: after that was starbucks coffee for small lil chats. talking about those times in secondary school, it seemed so far away. never will be get those times back. a pity i didnt treasure as much as i could. saw patricia and friend andthe first question that popped out of her mouth was, 'eh, your two still hang out together even after so long?' somewhere along that line la. after some small chats and stoning, we went to harbourfront to fetch auntie and then bishan for dinner. uncle, auntie, pet, jem, lydia and myself. it felt so out. it was like uncle, auntie, pet and jem were one family and lydia and i just happened to sit next to them. :D lydia asked me, 'why the sudden family gathering?' haha. i dont know leh. maybe. hmmm. ya. and then when pet went to get a drink for me, some guy thought she was the coffee auntie working at the coffeeshop and ordered a drink from her. HAHA. but what can beat mistaking jem as pet's father. :D went to take a bus home. some stupid uncle must come and disturb me when i was boarding the bus. there was not many people in the queue, so i decided to cut the queue. it didnt make a difference what. everyone will still get their fair share of seats at the end of the day. why must say, 'AIYO, dont know how to queue up ar?' so i said, ' not say blocking you right?' then i knock him and walk inside. crazy. if you had a bad day, dont anyohow pick people and scold. you were lucky i din say anything nastier.
p.s. why jem dont need to work one ar? he looks so damn free lor. somewhat like me and you lor. :D but isnt that good. |
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/ 11:32 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
saturday. day spent with pet, jem, uncle and auntie. went to little india to do some survey. imagine doing a less than half an hour survey, where all you do is test drinks and talk cock, and you get $30. wow. good money man. its not even work man. after the survey was lunch? hi-tea? at newton. i think i must be very hungry or the barchormee was too nice. i finished the whole bowl of it. :D after eating, was pet's house in jem's car. maybe i'm really too light. when his car hit the hump, i flew off the seat. and i felt my lower backbone crack abit. wha. old injury is no good for the health man. stayed in pet's house for quite some time. and one by one all fell asleep on the chair. HAHA. after that, went to toa payoh to get pet's new phone. lucky buddy, always getting the phone changed. i think it was the first time jem went to toa payoh, so he got lost. thats not the worse. he got lost in ntuc also can. and i was the one looking for him. in the end, guess where he was. he was waiting for me outside. -.- waste my efforts to search for him.
as i was saying, things doesnt stay good for too long. its always a circle and its always the same old thing coming back to you. |
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/ 11:24 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
wednesday, thursday and friday was work work and more work.
friday's work is more interesting. firstly, operation was smooth. and then, i need to go to the toilet. i din know there was a guest in the toilet, so i opened the first door. but i saw the second door closed, so i was hiding and peeking, trying to see if there's someone in the toilet. just then, the second door was unlocked. and i was so shock, that i ran to hide behind the glass door. little did i expect the guest to walk straight into the glass room. because the guest is suppose to walk out of the toilet and turn right. not walk straight. and i was laughing all the way. damn malu sia. over all, work with nikki babe and kelson was fun. full of nonsensical stuffs. |
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life. & so much more./ 1:26 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
  number one meet mou. pronounced mouse without the "s".and number two would be the ant on Suzie, Ma Yi, as the chinese would call it. Horse Aunty. i ve realised the importance of money. gon come up with a saving plan that actually works. my body clock's all upside down now. keep the late hours again. i'm quite determined to get myself back in the school mode, although i must admit, its really tough... sigh. all these and more. financial burden. would anyone feel like i'm a financial burden to them? i don think much of an emotional baggage but more of a financial burden. i hope no one pays for my company i don wanna be labelled social escort man. i just wanna be good company, be a true friend. is tt all very hard? maybe i'm just thinkin too much... oversensitive? or am i just being paranoid? things you think about before you go to sleep sometimes can really keep you up all night. no one's really told me what kinda friend i am to them. i know how much they treasure this friendship, but what ingredients make a good cocktail? not too strong to knock you out, yet not too mild t keep you sober. that lil spice, that lil kick, that wld let you want to keep me as a friend not just kick me aside. im really curious to know. does the x factor really exist? or is it just some convenient excuse to use to summarize everythin? i know i offer the push and pull factor sometimes, but why wld anyone want the push? it's close to half past 4 now, with that stupid noisy ikea clock tickin by my bedside. got an appt at 1130 tmr... plus driving after. sigh. yeah i know. what happened to going to sch? beats me man. i don know what it'll take for me to realise that i'll need to go to school. mould my future, yeah with what? a cake mould? jelly mould? or cookie mould. i want a star shaped one though. not everything goes smooth in life, i know. i guess i'm immune to the down side of life. which... is not a very good thing i must say. i gave this wed night a miss, dont feel like i've missed out on much given the overwhelming crowd that will trample all over my poor toes and the smelly body odour and the cigarette breath. nt like i smell so much better, but i'm sure it beats smelling myself. considering i bathe in my own perfume. haha. i'm starting to talk nonsense, please only take in every sentence in 3 sentences. do i offer that comfort to let people break down in front of me? do i offer that security. i need to know. the previous girlfriends never told me what was it about me that they were attracted to. if only i knew. i could work my charm and play those bitches out. okay, i'm jokin. what charm. mayb the fleece on my backside kinda charm. i'm so amused. i shall leave two animals for your viewing pleasure. |
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/ 9:59 PM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
 HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY GISELLE! 17062008. giselle's NINTEEN birthday. i actually planned the surprise many weeks before. but in the end, it was still considered a flop i guess. most of the guys din turn up, neither did debra, mandy and veron. so at the end of the day, only ahsok, ningxin, aizhen and i came. met at causeway point. decided to buy three small cakes and one of her favourite food, which i dont know what it was. walked to rp, which was damn freaking far. all four of us sweat and complained. "eh! not my fault the school is so far okay?!" waited for her to finish her class. while waiting, we realised that we forgot to buy the lighter. and major panic. we had to borrow from the table next to us, which we thought looked like smokers. so giselle was kinda surprise to see ningxin, aizhen and ahsok. at least not that bad. ahsok damn bad sia. he asked her to chao school. haha. so i helped by saying some encouraging words too. haha. in the end, she still ended up chao-ing school with us. decided to head to far east for chicken rice. long long train ride from woodlands to orchard. just when we were outside far east, heading to eat chicken rice, jay called. and said he was coming and he wanted to eat too. so we had to wait for him. which means another long ride waiting time from woodlands to orchard. went to visit alvin while waiting. he offered a $5/hr job for giving out fliers. and he said, "cut botak FREE!" haha. after a long wait, jay finally came and we finally get to eat. after eating, we decided to head to isetan to visit jessica who was working there. ended up, we accompanied her for her break. which was a pity half an hour break. reminds me of the days in worked in OG. half an hour is not even enough for us to queue to buy food la. ahdoi! after that, walked around town till 6 when i had to leave. went to harbourfront to meet pet and auntie. both of them were late. so i ended up waiting till 7pm. anyways, sakae sushi for dinner. the manager was damn funny la. he said, "you can use the mou to order. its more fast!" haha. we were laughing at it throughout dinner. had to leave straight after dinner, which i felt so bad. and i know its rude! apologized to auntie when i woke up just now. |
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/ 9:47 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
okay. major-ly lacking of updates.
friday. last day of school. so lesser people turned up that day. friday the 13th. school was as per normal. ended school at 11 instead of 12. but had to stay back for MICE project. which was a little funny. WHATS WITH THE XIAO LA PA AND THE YAN DAO??!!!! anyways, went home after that. slept like a fat pig, like i always did. was supposed to meet pet and nat and jem at chomps at 6. so as i was about to leave the house at 5 plus. pet messaged and told me to stay home first. at first i was like, "whalaoeh. always like thats ones lors." but when she sent me the second or third message, i realised that she wanted to surprise me by coming round with jem to fetch me before heading to chomps. she's always failing in giving surprises. so i decided to play along just in case she gets upset. haha. so in the end, we reached chomps at 6.15. waited for ms nat. forever late. this time her reason was she was watching brother bear or something like that, which was shown on KIDS CENTRAL? haha. anyways, overall. dinner was good. filling. and the surgarcane drink's glass was like damn enormous. reminds me of incredible hulk! :D thanks pet, jem and nat for making this dinner happen. |
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/ 1:11 AM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
 WITH LOADS OF LOVES! Y |
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ten plus in the morning/ 7:17 PM
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Hmmmm. Monday morning, its' 10.18am. i should be sleeping, surprisingly, i could get up for my doctors appt. sheesh. 2 hours of sleep. at this rate i'm going i'll prob end up killing myself. Lack of sleep, dehydration and whatever not. Test results proven negative, so gotta refer back to AH for the case which i hope hasn been closed. its funny. how my body works.
current song on itunes - always be my baby, david cook. guess where i first heard this song. yeah you're correct. =) all right, stop having a monologue. gon meet buddy in town now... =) i hope we're having chicken rice. haha, i never like making decisions actually. so its good when it's easy. i have no idea what i'm talkin about. everyone says they can draw the line between work and personal life. but can they really do that? is it possible to treat them differently? or is it with my current mindset ive got all the stupid ideas? that what's actually happening isn't actually happening at all... see. im confused. i think i wont need a physiotherapist, i'll need a psychiatrist. i'm going insane. unless you're telling me the physiotherapist will like massage my brains and i'll be able to think properly, but hey guess who's my therapist. he's not exactly the best person i would want his hands around my delicate lil skull. like i feel my heart has went to my head and my brains have went to my arse. if you can figure out what im saying, please gimme a call and enlighten me. because of all i'm typing, only 30% makes sense to me. Labels: emotionally draining., heart wrenching |
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mixed signals./ 2:08 PM
another sleepless night, gee this is gettin worse... it's not supp t be this way. ive got an appt at ssc tmr. hope my blood test results dont show that i'm dying. even if i was, it'd be very painful to know. well well, at least i know for a fact he wont be around in the morning. so it wont make my heart race or skip a beat. in this case, absence doesn make the heart fonder, it basically just kills the feeling. which might be good. who am i t say its right or its not t feel whatever i'm feeling. At least i know for a fact that i'm still alive, i'm feelin somethin. It's nice to wake up t a call or text from you. =) or from anyone. maybe thats why i sleep half my day away. i feel wanted, feel accepted, feel loved. i don know if i've been takin a lot from everyone else. ive learnt from the last r/s with a girl that giving sometime's too much, will often result in being taken for granted. you cant deny it, when you get closer and more comfortable with each other, things will be taken for granted. Sometime's you'll ve t go thru pain to realise that actually he or she meant alot to you. You dont cherish things when you have them, you only realise it when it's gone. well, i just found out that... i'm gonna lose track on someone... someone who used to mean a lot to me. who i did the craziest and stupidest things for, spend one of the best times with.. that someone who turned me into who i am today... the person whom i fell for at the start of time... but i have to understand that it's my choice that i lost touch with him.. and... now i'm not going to know what's going on in his life, where's he moving on t... it's hard to accept, cos he was a great guy apart from the fact that he fucked the ex... it's all good.. girls say good guys are hard to find, i agree with them.. but i think i've found quite a few, and i 'm so glad they're my friends. =) dont tag askin me to introduce them to you, sorry but i gotta think about it. I can get very selfish when it comes to sharing my friends. because, after all, they mean the world to me. I don know what i'd be if i didn ve my friends. I trust too easily, and that's a weakness. i'm not gonna go on. thinking i'll finally be able to sleep. thank blogger for this application. it works a lot better than sedatives that spoil every organ in your body before finally putting you to sleep.
ps. go catch kung fu panda, its pretty cute. haha master wu gui! don't die, you cant die. and master wu gui says, i'm not dying, i'm just putting myself at peace and gettin some rest. well somewhere along that line. you get my point guys. OUT. |
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kneel down and pray, i'll see you tmr./ 3:04 PM
Friday, June 06, 2008
making decisions could be real hard. depending on what's affecting you decision.
dont you think so? so the question for you to think about today is, when it comes to matters of the heart, do you make your decision based on how you feel or what you think about the issue? so basically when it comes to the heart, does the heart take lead or do you let your head rule your heart? if you know its morally wrong, would you still go ahead with the decision against everyone else? they say happiness is all that matters. is it really true? so many conflicting thoughts. i had a good talk with him. i opened him up to me, i did the same. but do all these matter? you ask me, what's the r/s we're having now? is it healthy. i tell you, it's all good. nobody's losing anything but feelings. is it all superficial or are there more issues and more feelings brewing beneath the surface? beneath what we see? no one can answer all the questions i'm posing because the answer lies within the person himself. you may think i'm good when it comes to making decisions. how often is it when we make the right decisions? i told him, there's never a thing as the wrong decision, a decision is a decision, no matter how you see it. it's because we regret, and when we have this feeling of regret, we think the decision we made is wrong-- is that how our mind really perceives things? or is it just me as an individual, i'm supp t be asleep right now. but as usual, the grey areas in my life are affecting me yet again. i've gotta tune my body clock back and maybe then, i wouldn't be so troubled, maybe, just maybe the grey areas will fade away naturally. like Leona says, "it'll all get better in time" i'll ve t agree with her. unless its prolonged agony. then obviously, it will NOT get better in time. how is it that in just one night one can provoke so many emotions within me, either my resistance is too low or he's pretty good at this. i wonder what do people think of me as an individual, that'd be rather interesting to find out, be it good or bad... isn't that something you would wanna find out? seeing yourself from another perspective...it's actually not easy, cos really, thinking bout it, the way you view yourself will never be the same as how others see you. you're just too used to yourself, i wouldn say too immune, cos if you're immune, how can you still feel hurt? maybe i'm just unsure of what i want or what's happening in my life. thus i apologize for the extremely draggy entry. i shall rest my mind. like the title of this entry goes, ACT BLUR, LIVE LONGER. zouk tmr night anyone? out. =) |
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/ 8:52 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
yea, i miss my best friend too.
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