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psychotherapy./ 10:25 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
its all just an illusion. or is it not?
; the treatment of mental disorder by psychological rather than medical. all right. so this is complicated, but not too complicating. A likes B, B likes A. A knows that B likes A but A knows that it is not gon work out. the mind is willing but the flesh is weak. was that a sign. a sign that B shld be backing off & not further complicated the already complicated situation. i wonder what they think of me. they know yet they don't. word has been going around. but are the actions speakin for themselves? or is the person representing her own emotions? do i know what i'm doing or do i think i know what i'm doing. what is this exactly? am i special or am i not? i always tell myself, it's nothing, it's really nothing. but at the end of each session, i find the will to turn and say bye. like it's gon be the last. what are YOU thinkin? what is she thinkin? what am i thinkin? do these questions really matter. all i wanna know now is what's really goin on inside of you. what're you honestly feelin & what're you honestly thinking. they say when i find out i wont' be able to just let it go. i'll pursue, til i get hit hard or we both get hurt. so you really shld listen to me on this, bcos you think you know who i am. but i'm tellin you, you don't. don't place hopes too high. the higher they are, the harder you'll fall. dont do this to me. its too physical and you're torturing me. mentally and emotionally. maybe i shld find the will to stop. stop seeing you. mayb, just mayb i'll forget who you are to me. who are you to me anyway? just another quick chapter in my life? or are you gon make a mark? or are you gon stay on in my life? so many questions. so little time. |