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psychotherapy./ 10:25 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
its all just an illusion. or is it not?
; the treatment of mental disorder by psychological rather than medical. all right. so this is complicated, but not too complicating. A likes B, B likes A. A knows that B likes A but A knows that it is not gon work out. the mind is willing but the flesh is weak. was that a sign. a sign that B shld be backing off & not further complicated the already complicated situation. i wonder what they think of me. they know yet they don't. word has been going around. but are the actions speakin for themselves? or is the person representing her own emotions? do i know what i'm doing or do i think i know what i'm doing. what is this exactly? am i special or am i not? i always tell myself, it's nothing, it's really nothing. but at the end of each session, i find the will to turn and say bye. like it's gon be the last. what are YOU thinkin? what is she thinkin? what am i thinkin? do these questions really matter. all i wanna know now is what's really goin on inside of you. what're you honestly feelin & what're you honestly thinking. they say when i find out i wont' be able to just let it go. i'll pursue, til i get hit hard or we both get hurt. so you really shld listen to me on this, bcos you think you know who i am. but i'm tellin you, you don't. don't place hopes too high. the higher they are, the harder you'll fall. dont do this to me. its too physical and you're torturing me. mentally and emotionally. maybe i shld find the will to stop. stop seeing you. mayb, just mayb i'll forget who you are to me. who are you to me anyway? just another quick chapter in my life? or are you gon make a mark? or are you gon stay on in my life? so many questions. so little time. |
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/ 9:40 AM
coming to class early in the morning and having some stupid typing class. OMG!
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/ 9:55 PM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
you know your best friend is your best friend,
but how do you know whether your best friend treats you as her best friend? this question is so damn worth thinking. cause you will never know. |
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/ 10:06 AM
Monday, April 21, 2008
DONT BLOG THINGS THAT DOESNT BELONG TO YOUR LIFE!
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/ 1:59 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
dont assume you know me just by what you see everyday.
i'm not as good as what you think i am. i just dont go around telling people i have problems. i'm gonna work the hell out of myself from now on. i hate being at home. i seriously do. |
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/ 11:50 AM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
'eh, why you look like your friend pet ar?'
this is okay. cos i heard it since last year, but i seriously dont think so. on tuesday, there was this taxi driver who asked pet if i was her DAUGHTER!?! eh whalao. its either i look like a baby, or pet looks like a mother. OMG! |
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/ 9:35 AM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
 today's design lesson is drawing myself. omg. please. i cant even draw on a piece of paper, and you want me to draw on the computer. alamaks! and when i handed my work to the teacher, she asked me is that my specs? and i said no. my boyfriend's one. obviously its mine la! |
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/ 1:30 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
school's starting on monday, which is like tomorrow. OMGZ. i am dreading it, yet looking forward to it at the same time. looking for8ward to meeting grace and joanna. (:
many things planned again this week! wednesday - 16/4/08 dinner at nat's house. friday - 18/4/08 5N class reunion. |
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/ 1:20 PM
major lacking of updates.
monday - 7/4/08 woke up damn earls to met pet. promise to accompany her to school just to cheer her up. i felt like so bloody fucking awkward in rp. i was so paranoid to a point that i kept asking pet what if people stand in front of me and ask, eh, what are you doing here? what class are you and stuff. HAHA. opps. waited for pet for one plus hour. while i was waiting for her, suddenly every year 2s were having break. and so, they all walked past me. it was so awkward and scary. its just the feeling like, 'oh, i'll never be able to fit into this crowd of people.' izza saw me. luckily she din ask why i was there. pet's break. went to the canteen, saw giselle, hugged her so hard. she din seem happy there. saw this girl, our junior. she asked why i was there. i din answer. and she asked this, 'so you are in the same class as pet?' and i was like, no. and she said, 'join rp la. then you can see her everyday!' siao! you think i so free ah?! went to causeway point because i totally cannot take it. waited for there. went to pizzahut for lunch, and went home. aiyo. went to work. so tired. thursday - 10/4/08 ITS SENTOSA DAY! woke up early, 8am. was the second to reach harbourfront. not surprisingly, mandy was the first. she's always the first. HAHA. obviously, some people totally has no idea what it means to be punctual, so they will be late. so we had to wait. from a group of 10 plus people going suntanning, to only 6 people going. see how much the class has changed. but anyways, it was a pretty good suntanning session. more people is fun, but less people can be fun as well, just ow you see it in a different angle. left early. had a slight tann. until now, no peeling at all. which is good? (: went back home and off to meet pet for a lil while. and went to work. friday - 11/4/08 woke up early again, 7am. met pet at bishan. she's always late. but you know what, when i plan to be late, she'll be early. tamade. anyways, made our way down to rp again to configure her laptop. but it was a wasted trip. because hers was a mac and her software expired or somthing. so yeah. met yuva like finally, after ten years! chey! and we were talking like there's no tomorrow. miss her so much man. after that, took a cab down to kallang. while flagging for a cab, i did something damn stupid. because there was no cab in sight, i flagged for subaru, merz, BMW. thinking that they will stop for me! HAHA. went to kallang. something awkward happen. luckily pet kept out just in time to save me, if not i'll be listenng to the presentation with the rest of the physiotherapist. went to toa payoh. decided to go visit mrs jaya in school. she was sick. :( tims was damn attention seeker sia. she was standing in the middle of the red circle, like a buddha. ALAMS. after lunch, went back to pet's house, and then to work. thats all for the week. well-spent efore school reopens on monday. |
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/ 1:20 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
INITIATIVE AND COMMON SENSE!
if you dont have any of them, please do not choose any tourism or hotel management jobs. please DONT! i'm seriously sick and tired of working with people who has totally no initiative and common sense at all! so what if you are older than me? if you cannot even help your own collegues, please give up your attachment space to other people who have more common sense and initiative. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA ABOUT EASY LIFE IN HOTELS! no such things please! |
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/ 10:30 PM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
cheeky:
-impudent; insolent impudent: -Obsolete. shameless or brazenly immodest. insolent: -boldly rude or disrespectful |
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/ 1:50 PM
I PASSED MY EXAMS! (:
i'm so happy lor. for people like me, passing my exam is already good enough. i was so nervous because everything i studied, din come out. so i was expecting like one subject fail or something. but i passed all three! i'm SO happy. |
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/ 12:50 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
APRIL FOOLS
-a practical joke or trick played on that day. living my life to the fullest. because you wont know when you're gonna die. |