things didn turn out as planned.
i guess i lost the chance.
so now im plannin the next step & i guess
that wld be t say goodbye. i cant erase you from my memory.
i'll just let those fond memories fade.
its just fuckin hard
its gonna take time, time... & more time.
im in a state of confusion. im feel lost, just totally lost.
even lost my drive in life.
i find myself smiling for the silliest reasons.
tryin t squeeze a genuine smile. a genuine laugh.
i cant bring myself t look at you. i just cant do it.
so much guilt -- so much regret.
fuuuuck this feeling.
" & i just wanna thank you. for those times. "

thanks for being there buddy... thanks for tryin so hard. thanks for the bolster.
=) thanks for the love.