monday**
went for paper in the morning. after that, literally RUSHED to pet's house. slacked for a while before going home. paper today was good, but the first two pages was like ohmygod. phone line was cut off today. so people can msg and call me, but i cant reply. i can still read and answer your calls though. so dont worry ar.

tuesday**
woke up f*cking early for paper today. after that, went to lyds house. knocked her door like ten million times before she opened the door. thanks ar. after that, went to party world to sing till 6. happily. :D

can the earth stop rotating for a while?
just for a while will do.
i need this little time, to breathe.

i really wished things can go back to how it was.

i really hoped the answer for your question was NO.

i haven been blogging, cos i dont feel like it. i feel that, if i ever start typing, i will type things that cannot be seen, cannot be heard. so yeah. i shall stop blogging for awhile, till i feel that i can surpress all my feelings.

-i feel you, are no longer you.

-if anyone of you out there has anything to tell me, you can say it right in my face.
-i dont like the feeling of someone running over to tell me what this person has said, when i thought that she's one of my closer friend.
-i am just trying to pretend i din hear anything.
-TELL ME STRAIGHT IN MY FACE NEXT TIME.

no mood today. can more things happened in a day?

LYDIA HO! READ THIS!

din go school today. because i was sick. i am serious. met lydia at twelve. this idiot was late. after that, went to her place and stole some food from the fridge. after that, went to toa payoh to have pizza hut. after that, went back to lydia's place and slacked. lydia did housework. wow. met pet for dinner. went home. thats all for today. thank you.

-person one: why do i not see you around in school anymore.
-person two: i think we have drifted more than an island away.

201007::
met sam ang at ang mo kio hub. was a little but late. went to far east and shopped for a few hours. went to eat chicken rice. afterwhich, we finally decided to get two heels. one each. yeah! that pair of heels that sam bought for me is damn nice la. after that, i followed her to zara to get her pants. ran from wheelock to far east cos i was meeting pet and was going to be late.

both of us checked into copthorn's hotel. slept for a while. after that, we went to have dinner. after that, we went to sit by the bridge. listened to music. talked quite abit. after that, we decided to go to holland for a drink. but the plan was aborted because edmund, ray, kaiho, daniel and wan qi came along. we went to dermsey hill instead. i think i spelt it wrongly but hackcare la. we sang karaoke. i swear daniel and edmund sang damn nice la! OMG! wan qi is not bad too. this pet just refuses to sing! no matter what. wha lao eh.

211007
after that, we went to meet wei zhang at boot quay at around 2am. boot quay as per wan qi said. wei zhang's birthday so must give face what. kaiho taught me how to play five ten. quite fun but i took quite long to get it. it was damn fun la. the mood was dampen by edmund. cos he was a little drunk and he was crying. then wei zhang started crying, then grala, then wan qi. both ray and i sat there and we were like stunned. so ray and i just sat there and drank. and drank. and drank. after that kaiho and pet came back. then we played five ten. that two idiot kept making me lose lor. wha lao eh. so i drank again. of course i got tipsy and all la. i couldnt even walk properly la. edmund was worse. he totally just laid on the floor la. OMG! then kaiho and ray thought he went missing. but actually he went to the toilet. both of them ran the whole street la. then they were quite fed up when we told them he was upstairs. then i totally cannot stand straight. i remembered kaiho said that i was lousy lor. i was really not drunk lor. just abit high leh.

i managed to head back to the hotel with pet. by the time we went back was already 4.30 plus. bathed and slept till ten plus. was a little emo in the morning. but okay la. at around twelve, we checked out. went back to pet's house. slacked till daniel came to fetch us. went to run errands. reached wei zhang's chelet at 6 plus. its time for me to head home. first time going home from there. got lost along the way. but finally reached home at 8pm.

-meaningful two days. i had fun. :D

wednesday//
lessons as per normal. not going to talk about the stressful courses. just be happy that i have a group to work with, and a place to be at ITE. nothing much. lets move on to thursday.

thursday//
science prac. easy for physics. not sure about bio. hope can pass can already. pet came over for dinner, and came to my place. so happy. nonsense. the friendship works two way.

friday//
went to school. school ended at 12pm. early. rained damn heavily. zhiwen, veron, mandy, debra and i went to clarke quay's settler's cafe. i din spend money there cos i had no money. thanks to debra and veron, sharing the food with me. THANKS! we played so many games. i like the taboon and game of life. taboon got so many question. then got some we anyhow bom, then actually can guess correct. played till 6pm, and still refusing to leave. this debra la. bitched quite alot. knew alot of things. GOOD. all in all. i had a very fun day today. i wish more of this day will come. :D

ITE won some world award. so today is ITE holiday. was suppose to go tanning with mavis, sherry, lyds and pet. yet, sherry and mavis couldnt make it. you wouldnt wanna know whats the reason. its the stupidest reason i heard. lyds din wanna tann at pet's house, so she decided to stay home. in the end, its ony left with pet and i.

we planned properly that we will hav breakfast and then head down to the pool to tann. in the end, what happened? we went to wei zhang's house to play basketball. then went to swim. SWIM? i dont even know how to swim. and i dont know which idiot, happily just pushed me into the water. thanks ar. after we bathed and all, we went back to pet's house.

waited for lydia until we almost fell asleep la. her half an hour was like one hour plus? OMG! then we played and stuff. i am going to put the most extreme photo on earth! no laughing! :D

what does that look like to you? :D

today is the start of the new school term. had a terrible time in school today cos i spent alost half the time trying to cover my hair from mrs heng so she doesnt debar me from school beacuse of my stupid hair. school ended excepttionally early today. so, since i had nothing to do, i went to little india with zhiwen, jay, debra, giselle, veron and a bonus member, jeammie. we went to eat two dollars masala thosai. okay, its nice but i dont like it.

after that, we went to mustafa to shop around. jay was damn shocked at the prices of all the things, cos it was damn cheap. i think i totally went crazy at mustafa today. its either i was too tired cos i haven woke up so early for so long, or, i was damn frustrated that i had to vent it somewhere. and unfortunately, the way i chose to vent it, was by going crazy. sorry guys. just needed to do something more exreme than usual to keep my mind off things. hope you forgive me. after spending a few hours there, we decided to sit at the coffee shop somewhere and rest our leg.

after that, the rest went to vivo. while i met pet for a while. tiring day.

do you know how it feels like to be betrayed?
i just felt it. JUST!
stop it!
to think that i trusted you.

11 October = Sentosa Day

woke up early in the morning. was quite excited for the sentosa's trip. i was practically rushing down cos i din want mandy to get angry. alams. if i din rush onto the first train, i would have board the second train and met veron. was the first few to arrive at harbourfront mrt at around 8.30am.

ashok, jay, mandy, veron, jessica and i went to the hawker centre opposite keppel bay to have breakfast. the food and drinks sucks to the core man. first time eating thosai. hate it! but had to finish it, cos i only have very little money to spend for the day. after eating a horrible breakfast, we went back to the mrt to wait for ash, bam, aizhen and ningxin. after meeting them, we slack around in vivo. were suppose to wait for zhiwen and debra, but we got damn frustrated, so we left for sentosa without them. in the end, we waited for them at beach station. saw this guy who was quite cute. he looks abit like jonathan. then when we alighted the monorail, saw this guy will luo zhi xiang's cap. alams! jessica and i went completely crazy!

we went to find a shady spot, which was under the beach petrol stand. we played a few games on the beach. after that, played some number game. then the life guars, which i insist calling him security guard! so stop correcting me! :D security guard made zhiwen go into the water and asked him to take off his pants and underwear. haha. so funny la. after that, we tanna dn played at the same time. i think debra had the most tann cos she laid under the sun when its the hottest! damn!

after that, we bathed and stuff and headed back to island singapore. met steph, went to town. met pet coincidentally. slacked around. steph had to go home. so i went to joyce's house. first time i talked to her for so long. first time she listened to me attentively. first time. i love it.

running a fever. dont disturb me. please.

monday~
woke up early. met pet for breakfast. slack around. slack like nobody's business. went back to pet's place to change. raining dinosaurs and crocodiles. walked through the rain. alams! finally reached toa payoh cc. waited for winston to come. his house only 5 minutes walk and yet, he is still late. aiyo. then played basketball for awhile. leonard took damn long to come. somemore he alighted at the whole cc la. ohmy. we thought he would cycle down. so every cyclist passed by, we would say, leonard! over here! haha. finally he came. then came dennis. some neighbourhood school guys came. then they played. i cheered. i am the cheerleader okay. haha. after that, went back to winston's place to bathe. first time i bathed so fast la. then we went for dinner. after that, we stood behind this blue car and they all started smoking. not say i am going to scratch his car, or they blow the smoke out will melt his car right? the car owner asked us to move off. what the fuck! after that, slacked for a while. dennis went home. i went home. left the two of them. mwahahaha. :D

tuesday~
went for lunch with pet. waited for winston. he is super gullible. sigh. met his friend. alroy? anyways, i call him astro. cos he look like astro boy. played basketball for quite long. some primary school kids came playing soccer at the basketball court. what the hell. we din wanna call police, but when leonard came, he was not very happy. so he threatened to call the police. after that, many things happened. met lydia. went for dinner with lydia, pet, winston and i. first time i finished the whole bowl of ba chor mee. then this pet and winston, i tell you... played the whole afternoon of basketball not enough. they went arcade and played somemore. ALAMS! after that, went back to pet's place to change. she dressed bung. at first she only wanted to show me. but after that, she wore it out. after how many months. she felt uneasy i think. haha. so i was being nice and took train with her. went home. T-I-R-E-D!

my mother just said this.
if you have a boyfriend that meets all these criteria, i wont bother you anymore.

1. HONESTY is the best policy.

2. NO smoking.

3. doesnt ride a BIKE???? [what the hell!]

4. treat me well.

5. and i dont know what rubbish more.

after she finish all her requirements, i told her. then i can remind single forever. whalao. where got guys like that now? i dont want nerds. i am sorry. someone, find me one.

lets forget about all the fucking unhappy stuff and focus on the incredibly happy things.

today, i met joyce. was supposed to meet pei ying too. but she had to clean her auntie's house. what the hell. that destroyed our plans for today cos the main point of meeting was to get new running shoes for pei ying cos yesterday her sole came off. fucking funny la. so it was left with joyce and i.

we made a last minute decision. we went to k box. sang for 5 hours. sang english songs and chinese songs. and we were imitating how the i-dont-know-what-school boy's action. he was acting like some lao ah peh la. then i imitated him, and the whole group stared at me. i turned and smiled, then i look at joyce and we all burst out laughing. haha.

around 6, walked joyce home, went back to tp and waited for steph to finish church. this idiot, i tell you. went to seven eleven. while looking for a drink for steph, i almost slipped and fell la. whalaoeh. i swear if i fell, i am going to sue seven eleven until i become rich! mwahahhaha. okay, i was kidding.

all i pray for now, is a better tomorrow. :D

i just banged myself damn hard.
i scored a gpa of 2.33.
and i thought the lower the better.
so i asked jay how come he had higher than me.
OMG! this is bad.

time to sleep. hope you can find me awake tml.

4th October 2007.

i wouldnt say its not my fault. when the whole world told me i wasnt in the wrong, i found myself more guilty. just when everything was falling nicely in place, such a thing had to happen.

all i wanna do now, is sleep to death.

ihateyou

ihateyou

ihateyou

well, i am bored.
and this person, doing some phone survey had to call me.
so, i entertained her.
but halfway through, i got bored.
and i got irritated.
because she is a china woman trying to speak english.
she kept repeating the questions.
i feel like hitting someone.
anyone, willing to be THE sandbag?
or anyone willing to buy me one?

IHATETHISFEELING!
no one can help me.
so please go away.

saturday"
wei zhang came, then we went to pet's house to wake her up. then after that, went for chicken rice. wei zhang went to cut hair, while pet and i went to shop. after that, edmund came. that emo boy. so quiet lor. sigh. then we went to play pool at cine. after that, met daniel, wei something. this bumch of monkeys. so fun. walk a few steps, bump into their friends, walk again, bump again. fun people man. went around searching for baby anklet. after that, pet and i went for sakae. shit, need to save money to pay her back. auntie also. alams.

monday"
stayed at home the whole day. children's day. going to visit my ah gong.